Fan Mail
Thanks for checking out my fan mail. I really wanted to share some of the hunreds of emails I have been getting. I find them so amazing and really make me feel so good about what i am doing.
No matter your thoughts or opinions, or if you just have a question about me or about being FTM or just any ol thing at all … I’d love to hear from you…
so drop me a line!
WOOF! – Buck
| Hey Buck, Feb 2010 Bucking The System on YOUTUBE Great to see your show up here. It is awesome that you advocate so strongly for transmen. I found you here because I was looking to see if there were any transmen doing body building. Your vids came up. I am currently training to do body building comps with biomen and have been competing as a transman with biomen in bike racing and running. I have a huge concern for our trans community in that there seems to be a staggering amount of obesity and general lack of health. It is my plan to try and reach out to the community regarding this as an educator and trainer. I will be presenting at this years gender conference on how to get back into our bodies through health and fitness. I think as a generalization spend so much of our lives disassociating from our bodies that transmen forget that we need our health. The other side of this being that strength training is an amazing way to form and sculpt for passing and just looking like a hot man-it is one of the reasons why you rock everyone! I present this letter to you for two questions. The first being is that since you are such a public figure reaching out to many trans men would you be interested in advocating for healthier transmen and perhaps going a step further with your videos. I am planning on making some vids and posting as well. The second question is whether or not you would be interested in joining us here in Seattle for the gender conference at the end of August/beginning of September. It will be the 8th year and we have people coming from all over the world. I think it would be a huge inspiration for everyone. As to what scope that would include would be open for discussion. I am very excited to see what you think about these things and on a totally selfish note for me I am hoping to ignite some fires and get more tranny musclemen out there  .Thank you for getting the word out there on so many different levels, keep up the show…it is really important. |
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Hi Buck. Feb 2010 I’m an eighteen-year-old FTM from Norway. I have to admit, when I first found out what you did for a living, I was being a bit ignorant. But now that I’ve watched your videos on youtube, I’ve gained a whole new understanding for what you’re doing – and I support you all the way! I do have a question that I hope you can give me some advice on. I just hope you can give me a little advice on this, as you seem to handle this situation pretty well, unlike me. What can I do to not feel so self conscious about this all the time? I’m just sick and tired of people (bio-guys) saying that it’s what’s between one’s legs that define what gender one is. It’s these people that makes me feel less of a guy. |
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Hey Buck, Feb 2010 I know you must get a lot of questions on youtube, but i hope you get chance to read mine, if not i understand you must be very busy. I’m 22 years old and i first started taking testosterone when i was 19, however unfortunately my body doesn’t seem to respond well to testosterone and i started to suffer with extreme hives upon taking testosterone. I then spent the next 3 years trying to solve the problem and tried every single common compound of testosterone but to no avail. All testosterones gives me hives and doctors didn’t seem to be able to help me at all. So at the moment i have been off testosterone for 6 months and i’m not sure what to do with myself. During my years on testosterone i suffered some hair loss and i’m just curious when you started to experience hair loss? and how did you feel about losing your hair? For me losing hair has knocked my confidence a lot as i was very attached to my hair and used to think that my hair was one of my only attractive features, but now my hair is receded and thin on top. I just wondered if you could offer some advice as to how i can improve my body without testosterone? Unfortunately i have a very female shape, my hip bones are very large and i now gain weight like a female, which gives me a very prominent curvy feminine shape that i hate. Do you think liposuction would be the best option for me, so that i can permanently alter the shape of my body by removing fat cells, or do you think this is a bad idea? I just have no idea how i can look the way i want to look without testosterone. I know that bodybuilding and exercising does help, but i have already tried bodybuilding and cardio workouts before i started to transition in an attempt to “cure” my dysphoria and rid myself of the female shape. Although it did help, i was never able to achieve a masculine look. Hello Buck Angel, Feb. 2010 I’m a young FTM ; I’m 21 years old. Sorry if my English is not perfect, I’m a Frenchspeaker from Quebec. I just want to thank you : you really help me to become more able to accept my body and to be able to enjoy the plesure that my body can procurate me. I saw some free samples of your movies and I bought Buckback Mountain (It’s a great porn movie with a lot of sensuality ! By the way, in my first love relationship, my bisexual boyfriend quit me because I don’t have a penis. At this moment, I was not able to accept me body and I felt really really bad with that. I prode of me myself : I’m able to be confortable with who I’m. So, thank to help me with your work. You have to know that you really help ftm in your transition (not just me… some of them). Maybe I embarrass you with me life. If it’s the case, I’m sorry. If not, I had one question. Do you have something to suggest me to fulfil my boyfriend’s lack who decided to stay with me ? I don’t want that he has sex with other men. Now, I just experimented to give him his sperm to eat and he really like that. |
| I saw him on the WE show and I must say, as a normal, but sexual explorer, I am female yet for some reason I think it is an absolute turn on! I’m attracted to both men and women and Buck Angel has it all! So keep up the good work! Never seen a movie of his but I think I would enjoy! Much love! Xoxo, Kristine |
| Hey Buck! I wrote you a long time ago about how I was figuring myself out. I just wanted to let you know that I did in fact get a therapist, and in December of 2007 I started my hormone treatment, and just last month I had my top surgery. You have been a huge inspiration in my life, and I am starting to work out now to try to get as big as you. I wanted to thank you for being out there for others in my situation and showing others that it’s okay to do this. I really appreciate you being open and all about yourself. I can’t express how much of an inspiration you were and still are to me. Thank you Buck!! -Casey |
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Hello, Buck!
I found your site yesterday, and I just wanted to let you know that I think everything about you is beautiful. Sincerely, Cheryl |
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I purchased one of your films. Fantastic. U know your stuff. I came so hard while watching it. lol ML |
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I am an Artist currently working on my MFA degree at UC San Diego and have been a fan for a long time. I realized that I need some inspiration on my studio walls, that being photos of amazing icons like yourself. I was wondering if it would be possible to request high resolution files from the new series, so that i may print and hang on my studio wall.
Ashley -11 and Buck Angel -13 If I find that the inspiration you bring builds the need to incorporate or reference you in any of my work I would most certainly contact you for approval first, and likely start some conversation about it beforehand. If not an imposition, of course. Best, |
| Buck, you’re my inspiration. you are what you are. Simple as that. I admire the hell out of you. The black and white shot of your back, and ass hanging out, the tattoos, it just inspires me to be more ME. Is there a way I could get some of these photos printed and you authentically autographing them for me? Your so handsome face but I just love the rear end shot with the tats….You simply INSPIRE me to be as ME as I can be. Years ago I worked for the Incredible Mae West. Let me tell you, SHE WOULD HAVE LOVED YOU. Even in her old age she wasn’t ashamed, afraid or curb her sexual interests. I let that slide away over the years. No more. You have brought back that feeling of uniqueness that gives life meaning. If you are ever in Phoenix, Az may I hug you!!!!? You are my hero. Please let me know if it’s possible to purchase some of these photos that you would sign for me. I’d frame them and hang proudly in my home. Keep shaking it, babe. Shake it till it won’t wiggle any more. Then just stand there and let it hang. Mae West taught me that. You reminded me of it. |
| Hi Buck, Many Thanks for your help mate. As an ftm myself I was pleased to find you on the internet and realise I am not the only ftm with a very broad minded attitude towards sex with many different types of people. I do not like making assumptions about people, but from what I have read from your interviews on the net and seen on your video previews, I am now glad to find another ftm who is as free minded about sex etc in the same way as myself. I look forward to receiving the dvd and just wanna say……..keep up the good work !! Can I also ask please, have you ever come to the UK and if not then do you have any plans to do so ? Cheers for your help. Regards, |
| I’m not a ftm chaser or anything….never been with one, but I was wondering how a guy like me could meet a ftm guy. I guess I’m “bi.” I’m in my 20’s. I live right outside of San Francisco. Gay men and mtf are everywhere, but I don’t know about ftm. It’s not fair…haha I think some ftm guys are really hot. Are there any online places to go or places near SF you know about?
You have a hot fuckin pussy. A nice ass too |
| hiya just saw a feature on you! wow you are amazing! as a straight woman, i never thought i would get turned on like this, but wow! you are totally fab! cheers |
| Hej Buck, greetings from Gothenburgh in Sweden. Just found you some days ago on Youtube, and now I just want to say thank you. Thank you for just being the way you are. Unfortunately I have seen none of your films yet. But thats only a question of time, the first dvd is on the way… You were brave enough to show the world your real face. I hope I can do that too in the future. Sometimes I feel like a freak when I look in the mirror and see a womans face. My face and not my face. Not my real one. I can´t recognize myself. But now the things have changed. To see you was a big kick in my ass. It´s all in my hands. I am able to change myself. Thank you. If you ever come to my country, feel free to write a few lines and I would be happy to invite you for a beer or two. Greetings and a kiss |
| I just want to say how much you have inspired me to be myself. I lived for several years while in Middle and High school hiding my sexuality. I am a lesbian and have been so since the 6th grade. I was raised in a strict Christian family so I could not express my self the way I wanted to. I came across your site one day , and it was then I realized it was ok for me to be me.I quit caring about what my family thought and have been in a relationship with a wonderful women for the past 2 years. You are a great role model for people like me. Keep up the good work and keep things real.
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| You are a good looking man, I’ve never been with a woman, but you are hot as hell, I would tear your pussy up, I was wondering if they are a site where I can see more pix of you, where I don’t have to have a credit card to access the site.. Thanks Jake
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| What can I say but…HOLY HOT DAMN!!!! THANKS for BEING and SHARING WHO YOU ARE!!! AMAZINGLY HOT, SEXY, SMART…the WHOLE PACKAGE!! I’m one of the remaining ORIGINAL SAINT men and Lord knows you would have been WORSHIPPED. Would LOVE a copy of “FIRE 1″. Actually I’m gonna have to find out how to get as many as I can. Hope you don’t mind but, you just became the ULTIMATE FANTASY MAN for me. AHOOOOOOOO-RAHHHHHHHHHH!!!! KEEP GOIN’ BUCK!! |
| hey, its intresting trying to figure out how to begin this email…so i wont i’ll straight to the middle it. i am not transgender, but you are one of my heros, because i live in a scary place, as far as acceptance goes, and i’m an 18 year old pagan priestess that is outright bisexual and a member of the body modification community, quite frankly the idea to be your self you must look like everyone else is a torturous one. my parents are divorced so i live with my husband, but when i did live with one of them ita was bad or worse for choises, the south or egypt. so its very exiting for me to find yet another person to add to the pantheon of heros, that pursue true morphological freedom, something with is so fowned upon in this place. I tell people every day “I never wanted to be different, i just wanted to be me” and i think thats the most important thing you can be, is you. That and you’ve got to be one of the sexiest beings on the planet, next to my husband (i think i’m obligated to say that by law or something ) but anyway, you’re an amazing person, so thank you for being you. and i hope you like this quite from shannon larratt. |
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Hello Buck Hope you are well? Just wanted to drop you a line to say what an amazing person I think you are. Keep being brilliant & inspiring as you are. |
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Hi Buck,
I’m a 35 year-old mom from Canton, Massachusetts (just outside of Boston). I have never seen any of your films, and have just heard your name for the first time within this past week. Basically, I just saw the documentary that you did here in the States on your career, and was completely blown away. You are one incredibly hot dude, and I am awed at what you have overcome to be who and where you are in your life right now. I’ve spent some time over the last few days (since I saw the “Secret Lives of Women” documentary) reading about you and watching a lot of your interviews on YouTube. I’m sending this email because I know that it’s been tougher for you to find acceptance here in the USA, and I felt compelled to raise my voice and tell you that THIS American really admires you, thinks you’re gorgeous (physically and spiritually), and wants to let you know that I think what you’re doing is truly fantastic. I’ve also been inspired by you and have recently started a dialogue with my three-year-old daughter about children who are born different. (More accurately, I’ve expanded our ongoing dialogue about not judging someone because of things like different skin color/racial makeup, handicaps, etc. to include transgender issues.) Being “born different” is a subject she can relate to, because she was born with her esophagus disconnected in the middle (a condition called tracheal esophageal fistula with esophageal atresia … or TEF/EA for short). The top half of her esophagus basically dead-ended a short way down, and the lower half was connected to her windpipe. Eating was impossible for her, and every time she took a breath, her stomach would fill with air. She required a life-saving reconstructive surgery when she was a day old to make it physically possible for her to eat. She’s had multiple follow-up procedures to address complications from the initial surgery. Because of this, she is fully aware of the fact (even at her young age) that you can’t help the way that you’re born, and she’s sensitive to the fact that it can be really hard when your body doesn’t grow the way it should have. After our discussion today, she decided that if she ever makes friends with a transgendered child, she’s going to “yell at” anyone who tries to make fun of them or teases them!!! That being said … I wish there was a way to reach out to local parents of transgendered children in my daughter’s age group (who often fear anyone finding out the truth about their child’s gender identity issues) and let them know that there is a family here where all the members would accept their child for who he or she is, without judgment or question. Rather than be put off by the thought of my child having a transgendered playmate, I would welcome the opportunity for her to continue learning acceptance of other’s differences at as early an age as possible. In general, I’m proud of the fact that there is a slowly growing awareness about the transgendered community (particularly children) in my neck of the woods. I’m sure you already know this, but Boston’s Children’s Hospital recently opened the Gender Management Service Clinic — partially to help transgendered children. I understand that it’s the first clinic of its kind that is geared strictly towards servicing children and adolescents. I’d love to get your opinion on whether or not you think it would be too forward of me to reach out to some of the parents there?? I would hate to think that there is a kid out there with no friends who accept them when my daughter would with open arms. I’m sure you get tons of mail, and I don’t really expect a response, but … considering that I don’t personally know anyone who is transgendered, I would rather get the opinion of someone who has been there before making any attempt to reach out to families of transgendered kids. I don’t want to put anyone off, or weird them out. I’m just aware of how hard it must be for kids who often live in fear of being “exposed” to their playmates, and would like to offer some of them a place where they could be safe and accepted. Meanwhile, I really did want to reach out and let you know how truly incredible you are. I’d love to actually get a chance to see some of your movies someday (right now, I can’t even rent one, since I’ve been laid off for almost a year, and I’m flat broke!), even though it’s going to really weird out my straighter-than-straight boyfriend. (He’s a trip … he has nothing against anyone who is GBLT, but he’s one of those guys who is so straight that they make a ruler look crooked.) Meanwhile … I’m so happy that I’ve learned about you!! Keep up the good work!!! By the way … the phrase “man pussy” is completely fucking awesome!!! Peace, (PS. I guess if you pigeonholed me, I’d say I’m 85% heterosexual … mostly straight, but with a few kinks in the chain [*grin*]. In essence, I’m more attracted to men than women, but I’ve certainly found my fair share of women sexually attractive. Regardless of the fact that I’m generally attracted more to men, I’ve never felt uncomfortable with my occasional attraction/sexual exploits with other women. [So you, being the "man with the pussy" are seriously intriguing to me ... LOL!!!] In general, I’ve always viewed sexuality as a sort of sliding scale, where everyone has their niche along the way. I hate the thought of anyone slapping a label on me about my sexuality, which I’m sure is a sentiment that you might relate to. I’m not straight, or lesbian, or bisexual, I’m just ME, and I’m just sexual, period.) |
| I saw you on the WE show and I have to say that my first instinct was to massively crush on you because in a strange world where at 32 years old I haven’t yet been able to define or express what I am attracted to- suddenly you appeared. You truly are the quintessential “intangible” that I’ve been drawn to since I was a little girl. I’ve been confused for years about how to classify my sexuality since my feelings started as a young girl. I’m not straight by a long shot but I am only drawn to aggressives and have a huge fetish for women who tape their breasts and dress like men. I’m very happily married to my male husband and partner of ten years however I am open about my bi-sexuality and he is aware of my strong attraction to masculine women. He also knows that I have had relationships with women before him and understands that it is a large part of who I am and his acceptance of my entire package is a great thing in a world that can be so intolerant and afraid of anything outside the box.
This said, the thing that made me look you up and send this note is how impressed I was by your openness and your happiness with your state of being and your lifestyle. Your peace and acceptance has finally inspired me to just accept myself for who I am and not feel the need to label or categorize myself. Sometimes we just are who we are and that is fine. I get caught up sometimes by the fact that I feel displaced by the queer community and offended by many of the straight mindsets but now I know I don’t have to pick sides. I can just BE and that is a wonderful thing. Anyway, I just wanted to let you know that I’m really happy to have heard your story and I wish you and your wife the best of luck with everything in life. Thanks for being you! |
| Hi Buck, I just tripped over your website, and it really did impress me. I mean you. I was just watching your pictures and I thought “Man, he’s a guy to make out with”… I like your looks, man, you look awesome. It shows how much care you put into being a man. It looks perfect. Tell you what? If I knew I could look so hot, I would follow this path instantly. But I’m not as brave… so I’ll just stick to this body and try to make the best out of it. Honestly, I don’t know what to make out of it. But I’m I heard about you. You’re really an idol, man. You can be really proud of yourself. I read somewhere that you used to get some hate mail. I guess you found a way not to care about that. And that’s what it’s all about. Going your own way, no matter what. Let them talk. What do they know anyway? Who cares what they say? I showed your picture to some people. Most of them thought you were quite strange. And they’d go “oooh, that’s not supposed to be”, “oooh, that’s not the way god planned it” - I guess you’ve had your share of these comments. Just wanted to express, that I would always stand up for people like you, cause you are able to make your dreams come true, which is something people like me barely do. So, thanks for making me smile and making me think about stuff and for doing what you do. Way to go. Take care! |
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Hi Buck and significant other(sorry I can’t remember your name),
I saw your vid piece on On Demand last night and I was so impressed. Buck you have so much guts and dare I say balls to do what many wish they could do. I still don’t understand the pussy thing except for the cost. Did you say $50,000-70,000.? I myself was brought up like a boy at my fathers garage doing very manly things. My toys were screw drivers and hammers and such. I hated wearing dresses cause I felt like a guy in drag. And relationships with guys were best kept at a buddy level. I would love to tell you more cause I relate to you so much. You have helped me not feel like such a freak. Thank you so much. I would love to be able to chat with you both sometime. My yahoo handle is mndym261@yahoo.com and my passion.com handle is Mandymore2nite. Ive attached a pic for you both to have a face with the name. I hope we can talk sometime. Sincerely, |
| Hey Buck I work at an adult video store and I’ve come across a couple of ur movies. I gotta admit bud, I have to double take everytime cause u just don’t look like u were really once a woman!! u pull the look of a man off quite well, infact so well that I had to look up ur site cause i wasn’t sure if u were a ftm tranny or if u happend to be one of those ppl born with a mutulated genitalia (meaning born a man with female parts or surgically altered at birth due to genital deformation) Never seen any of ur movies though cause i’m just not into porn ( i look at it every day for pay lol) but I mostly wanted to say u make a good lookin’ man and if u had a cock well i’d jump on that lol. stay proud and keep up the work, havn’t recieved any recent movies in our rentals any new suggestions? Any way to get an autographed pic??? (that would be awsome)
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I just wanted to tell you that I just saw the episode of “Secret Lives of Women”. I want to commend you for telling your story. You are an amazing person and I wish you all the best!!!! |
| I watched WE tv last night and saw you on a show about porn stars. I am a 62 year old grandma and have never been a fan of porn but I say to each his own. I was taken by your courage to expose yourself to the world and I’m glad you found success. You seem like a very nice person. I am happy for you that you found such a loving and caring wife. How lucky for you. I wish you both the best life has to offer. Sincerely
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| Hiya Buck,
Just found your website (though I’d heard of you before) and Man – Wow! You look so great, you’re definitely my new hero. I’m 21 and four months ago had my chest op, which I’m happy with, but my scar is pretty bold right now, and I was wondering what type surgery did you have on your chest? I have basically two scars right across my chest, which almost meet in the middle, and I had my nipples re-attached as free skin grafts. I find it hard to imagine that I will ever look as good as you! Another thing I was really impressed with by you is your evident openness about being a sexual being. I am in love with my girlfriend but fairly often I feel like having sex with men. I haven’t though; but I can’t tell you how happy it makes me to know that you don’t necessarily have to just pick one way to go for, either love with gf or sex with men, and never have the other. Is it difficult to balance these parts of yourself though or is it ok? Your wife must be incredible with understanding just who you are – where did you find her?? Hey Buck, |
